I've Been Thinking 'Bout Something Other Than You

Took Hannah out last night for her first night at the strip club and Little Texas
It was a lot of fun! We got a good group of people.

Desmond was DD which was good, everyone got along with him
Kaitlyn is Hannahs friend, I'm glad she was able to join
Naomi joined us
Sabrina and Matt too
and when we got to the bar we met up with Jessica, Bekkii, Tina, Tina's boyfriend Andrew, and his brother Chris.
We also saw a couple people from our program.

It was really great!
We didn't stay at the strip club long because we left the house a little later than what we planned
but everyone danced at the bar for a while, it was great.
Ran into Jay Bauer, that was awkward.
It always is running into him.
Otherwise it was a great night! I can't wait to go out with the CYW girls :)

We're all going to have to learn to calm our shit when we're at the bar though.
I was grinding on all of the girls at different times. Also with Chris and Desmond a little (just to get Jay Bauer to leave me alone LOL)
Tina was trying to kiss everyone
Hannah kissed girls
and Naomi kissed Chris.
For Naomi, Hannah, and I we need to look professional and not do things like that especially when we're done our program.. Some of the youth we look after or parents we know might be at the bars.
                       
Hannah and I   \/

Soon Soon!

September 2nd is orientation for school, I'm so excited to go back!
And I'm a peer mentor along with 12 other second years
We get to go tree top trekking again for free! :D
I think I might bring my camera this time to get pictures of the obstacle courses and such.

Then August 4th will be the first day of real classessss!

In a way I'm not exactly prepared because I don't know where any of my books and binders are.
But I'm mentally ready!
I can't wait to see everyone again
and see what we have to learn this year.
:)

What a night...

New Update

Can't sleep tonight.
Or maybe I simply don't want to.
I've got a busy day tomorrow.
But I feel like I should be doing something now...

I'm back at my parents place for the time being.
Moving in with Hannah most likely for the beginning of November
It will be nice to have our own place.
I think we'll be okay living together.

Jasha and I are still friends
Which is nice
Going to see him tomorrow
To bring the lease
Talk to the landlord
And maybe watch something
I'm glad the breakup went good
Well,
As good as break ups can go.

I just wasn't in love anymore
I'm not ready to be tied down
And I'm happy to be single.

I don't need no arms around me

I don't need no drugs to calm me.

July 10th 2014

A lot has changed since my last post.

I live in Belleville now with Jasha, I finished my first year of school, and I'm working at Family Space which is where I did my school placement.

Everything is well and good
Thought I should update.

:)

July update

its so weird having a new laptop that i never use
even worse that im not even using it for this post.
i hate the keyboard for jasha's computer, its too wide
im used to my old netbook.
i must say, windows 8 is weird, but really convenient when you get used to it.

so
whats new in life?
-tomorrow is 3 months with jasha.
its going swimmingly.
-tomorrow is my cousin christina's baby shower
i hope shes ready to be a mom.
-friday im going to niagara falls
with jasha, sabrina, possibly damon, and hopefully a couple other people, but who knows...
-july 20th is my cousin caleb's wedding
its only the second wedding i've ever been invited to, the last one i was only 6 years old.

and i think thats all the interesting stuff.
oh the 27th is journey concert!
and going back to school in september!
getting more and more excited for that!


yes thats my update.
if anyone is still checking my blog, feel free to message me
or post on here
let me know whats new in your lives!
im excited for life :)

Confused

I try so hard to be good to people
I try to be there for all my friends and help people whenever I can.
Why do people keep stealing shit from me?

I was working for the robbery
I had my purse and weed stolen
and now so much stuff is gone.
I had my laptop covered up
but they must have seen my extra purse in there
broke in to grab that
and then broke the second window to check for more
and I guess thats how they found it.
I must've had a feeling
because I was gonna bring my laptop into the store.
I thought about it
but decided just to cover it up instead.

Well that wasnt good enough.
I'm glad they didnt get the power cord.
but they got a whole lot of information about me
and  if it's the same guy that robbed the store
that might have been his main goal.
get something to sell
and learn as much about me as he could.
I know thats a bit paranoid
but if it was him thats what I'm going to assume.

I'm going to call the cops again tonight
once I'm done work
and ask if he's gotten out on parol already
and if he has
they should check in on him.

At least I've got the serial number
its on the power cord
if he tries to take it to a pawn shop
they'll confiscate it.
but gauranteed all my stuff will be gone.
I knew I should've put it on my harddrive...
ohhh well.
I guess I get to start over again.

What all have they gotten so far?
Both robberies combined they got my camera, awesome key chains, weed, beach bag, 2 purses, laptop, 2 ipods (pretty sure jashas ipod was in one of the bags they took), aux cord, tim hortans mug, mitts, ear muffs, awesome pink laptop case, awesome book that i put everything in (osap info, ontario colleges info, work hours), makeup case that i had EVERYTHING in, and a few other little things.
Some stuff is not a big deal
but I'm really upset about jashas ipod and my laptop.
my ipod was old, didnt really care much for it.
but my laptop was my life...
I wish I could call now.
But I'm supposed to be working and wouldnt want to be in the middle of a phone call when a customer comes in.

So far I'm just driving around with 2 windows completely gone.
I'm glad he didnt take my shoes.
Oh and mom and i came to the conclusion that if clothes are on top of the bag of stuff
people won't steal it.
that I think is the only reason I still have my power cord
and my DS.


Enough ranting for now I suppose.
I hope things look up.
Friends don't seem to want to talk to me
except brity and becky of course.
and jasha.
I don't know what I would do without him.

Baby I'm amazed at how much I really need you.

happy one month my sweet!
it has gone by so fast, and yet i feel like i've been with you forever. 
I have never been this happy with anyone
and never been so comfortable.
you are my boyfriend
and my best friend,
which is what I've always wanted.
its what i've always believed a relationship should be.
but i've never been able to make it work,
but that makes sense because i've always been with the wrong guys.

i can talk to you about anything
and everything.
you and i work through things,
talk through things,
anything.

we have the same friends which is awesome.
there are a few that need to just start being happy for us,
but otherwise it makes things so much better.
we can hang out with them with no awkwardness
he doesnt have to meet my friends and try to make a good impression
they already love him.

you make me happy with me.
who i am
my future
my personality
and my choices.

you are my Jasha.

Hey you.

Don't tell them there's no hope at all.
Together we stand.
Divided we fall.