hey you.

don't tell them there's no hope at all.

together we stand.

divided we fall.

I'll remove the cause..

..but not the symptom.

you will never simply be someone i used to know.

but you will always be someone i care for.

and wished to stay close to.

but it is never easy to stay in contact with everyone.

and i am terrible at staying in contact

with anyone.

you be good to you.

always.

No one ever is to blame...

i dont know what just happened but everything i had written simply disappeared.

i said a lot of things that i don't think about often.

and now i don't think i want to repeat it.

i live in fear.

and long for security.

oh how i wish to live without worry.

all i want to do.

is hold you.

i hope you know.

just how much i think about you.

do you think about me too?

cuz every little thing is gonna be alright.

sometimes i just want to be angry.

usually it's because of something someone says.

especially when i explain something first

and they continue to think that things can go their way.

example.

saying that after work i cannot fall asleep right away.

makes sense doesn't it?

i work until midnight almost every night.

even on the nights i DON'T work until midnight

i'm still up until 2,3,4, or sometimes 5am.

my body feels exhausted.

but i still can't fall asleep.

my mind wonders.

and most times.

it's actually WORSE

if i try to force myself to sleep.

lying in bed for hours

tossing and turning

is not my cup of tea.

so suck my chocolate salty balls.

THAT'S how angry you made me tonight.
so angry.

that i had to stop replying to your texts.

and even when i thought i had gotten over it.

watched some of the office to calm my nerves.

i was still angry.

p.s.

we,

as imperfect human beings,

cannot help who we have feelings for.

the end.

oh, and hello 2012...