You Give Love a bad Name

I dunno.

I want to post something.

because I haven't posted anything for a while.

but I don't know what to say.

its not really my top priority.

but nothing is in the right order anymore.

hopefully i'll get all my homework done.

and to the best of my ability...

this is not what i want to do and i can't WAIT until it's all over.

i wish i had realized this earlier.

so i wouldnt still be in school right now.

i hate it.

this entire program.

i've finally become comfortable with most of the people in my class.

which is super nice.

but i cant do accounting.

also.

i cant wait for my horses to be gone.

i spent 3 hours cleaning stalls and getting hay for those monsters yesterday.

i could have been doing homework...

not that THAT matters either.

my god i'm getting so sick of it.

this weekend should be fun.

i wish i had planned it better.

or just told riley that i'm busy and cant make time for him.

because now it seems like he doesnt want to come to my house at 3am.

which makes sense if you're going to be rippin' around on a dirtbike all day.

but still...

maybe you shouldnt have suggested it then?

because i was just going to make it so we dont see each other this weekend.

i'm gonna have to talk to him.

we're always so tired when we hang out.

which makes sense because its around 10-11pm.

we end up smoking bongs and watching tv.

talking fairly little except for the about the show.

and maybe a few other topics; cars, my coworkers. lol.

i've seen this happen already.

this was my last relationship.

based on drugs.

and i'm not going to let it happen again.

i just need to find a way to talk to him.

i hope he's not uber attached already.

because it wouldnt make sense.

and i'm just.. not.

mainly because we fail at texting.

and i barely know him at all!

so i dont know...

maybe i'll talk to him this weekend.

but that doesnt seem likely at 3 in the morning...

is stupid, yes?

indeed.

more rants later probably.
SIGHS