Hello August.

I come back from 4 days of camping
and feel quiet refreshed.

but isn't it awful how quickly all your old worries
troubles
and nonsense
come right back into play
as soon as you're back in civilization?

as far as I'm concerned.
none of this fucking technology should exist.
I'd be happy with phone calls and snail mail.
at least then I can hear tone
and I know its just the mail thats taking for fucking ever.
instead of you.
not texting back
because you're busy
with whatever
and i'm here
lonely
and miserable
wondering if it's even worth this pain
that i create myself...

i know i should talk to you about this.
but i want to see you to talk to you about it.
and when do we see each other?
maybe twice a month?
i know this is fresh,
this is new,
i dont want to push things too far.
i dont want to push you away.


i thought things would be different
i thought i would be different by now.
but all i know
is i like you too much
i care for you tones.
and i dont know how you feel...
i just dont know.

and i hate when i get into this depressed state over things that are so fucking dumb.

i wouldnt have any problems right now
if texting did not exist.