look at above picture.

...

you've looked at it?

good.

i think it has helped me realize that "the crazy eyes" are real.
Barney talks about it on How I met Your Mother.

and they try to say why "the crazy eyes" aren't real.
and actually i don't quite remember how that episode ends.
i'm pretty sure the girl still ended up being kinda crazy.

EITHER WAY!
i have found a game.
for this post, right here.



which girl has the crazy eyes?

don't let me.

get me.

why do i do this to myself?

i like asking if you'd mind being kidnapped.

to anyone.

because it makes me giggle.

my own personal joke i guess.

haha.

because

i don't think anyone else laughs...

i think my biggest issue right now.

is not knowing what you're thinking.

we talked a bit about it.

which kind of made things awkward for a bit.

and you're still figuring out.

whats going on with him.

even though he probably still hasn't talked to you.

or at least you haven't told me anything...

i'm still pretty chill.

life is time, therefore time is all there is.

that usually means you should do what you want

/now/

so that you actually get what you want.

before it's not too late.

which could be the case.

but i'm going to choose to take my time.

and use it carefully.

i don't want to cause you more confusion.

which is one of the reasons why i haven't made any moves.

i don't want you to hurt anymore.

and i don't want to lose one of my best friends.

i'll be here until the end.

if you let me.

i'm still coming to terms with it.

don't call me beautiful anymore.

don't call me baby.

don't.
call.

HAHAHAHA i need sleep.

My Lonely Days are Gone.

Raise your glass if you are wrong.

in all the right ways.


it's okay.
i'll be okay.
i'm always okay.





i think you'd be good to me.
and i'd be
/so/
good
to you.



we all make a fuss.

but there's never a rush.

to get on with life.

you might have to wait.

on the bus.




yeah i suck at rhymes.
sue me.

every time.
i scratch my nails down someone.
else's back.
ihopeyoufeelit.


ohcanyoufeelit?

which.
isnt really the way to look at it.
technically, we're still developing.
and we're fucking up that process.
by drinking
and doing other drugs.

butit'sjustsogoshdarnfun!

and you only.
live.
once.
right?


what if you wait all your life to retire and THEN take up smoking pot, and you end up getting hit by a car, WHAM! everything's over. you lived that life of hard work, no play, and now? well, what comes after death? we don't actually know for sure, do we?
but we can have our beliefs.
and i don't think they'll let us smoke pot in heaven.
or hell...

Body Like a Mannequin..

being pretty doesn't make it easier...

i don't know how long.
i can wait.
<3

For always and forever, baby.

i know that you dont want to hurt him.

and i think that's part of the reason you can't end it.

because you know that your relationship will never work.

but you feel bad.

don't feel bad.
he has hurt you far too many times.
and you need to get angry
and tell him that!
tell him that you don't want to cry anymore!
he causes you so much pain

but you can't let go

because you don't want to hurt the boy that has been your love for so long.

and

because of your history.

i love you dearly.
i just can't sit back and watch this anymore.

it's starting to really hurt just to see it.
because you're a Blue.
sensitive, creative, Blue. <3

i see that you're back together.



hahah
lets see how long it lasts this time.
<3

i will miss you my dearest dollface.
but i'm glad you're going to a good home.

she spoils her horses.

and thats what you've always loved.

being spoiled.



and i'll miss you too Rusty.
it was nice still getting to see you over the past 2 months.


i will love you forever and for always.
my babies.
you will be.

i know you're not the sweet talker like i am. i know for some reason you can't be mean to ALL these people that you barely know but then your best friend from grade fucking 9 you can be short with and, y'know, i enjoy sarcasm. but sometimes you're just plain fucking rude!
i can't say this to your face.

because nothing is going to fucking change anyway.

it will just make you awkward towards me for a week or so.

but just know.

it makes me feel like you don't appreciate.

or love me.

at all.

i've said before that i may not be around as much as i should.
so fucking shoot me.
sorry that i get caught up in life.


i just wish you could put in the effort.
when you're talking to me.
because we have been together for a looooong fucking time.
i don't want to lose you.
but some days you simply push me away.

there have been maybe 3 times in the past year that i have
/literally/
wanted to simply be as far away from you as possible.
because of some dirty look you give me while saying some snarky smartass sarcastic remark.
it PISSES me off!

everybody has 'moments'.
when they speak before thinking.
and come out looking stupid in the end.

those sarcastic remarks you say to me, when i have one of said 'moments'.
make me want to break your nose.


sometimes i notice too much too.


still.
i try to make the effort.
i want people to know i like them.

instead of having to guess.

depending on the looks you give.
looks, tone, and what is said.

i dunno.

Change is almost always in the right direction.
If you notice that you're starting to go off track, you can always turn around.
Or maybe there's a fork that will lead you the right way.

Either way.
never fear change.

you wouldn't believe the amount of quotes i had saved on my lost phone to use for titles.

Original...?

You're my Honeybunch,
Sugarplum,Pumpy-umpy-umpkin,
You're my Sweetie Pie,You're my Cuppycake,
Gumdrop,Snoogums-Boogums,
You're the Apple of my Eye.

And I love you so
and I want you to knowThat I'll always be right hereAnd I love to sing sweet songs to youBecause
you are
so dear

<3

super evil. i am your enemy.

hating being at home right now.

but i don't wanna go anywhere.
failllll.

so maybe i wont tell you to your face why you're one of my best friends. but i think if you still read my blog, you'll know im talking about you.


you are the only one that appreciates how much effort i put into all of my friendships. i try to be there for everyone when they're down and you've even told me before that i've helped you. that i've taught you something. and that life cant be changed. <3




i know im not very happy with you right now, but my original hate message was supposed to start with this. so i figured i should post it somewhere.
all i want is for you to understand what im trying to say in my messages, and just try your hardest not to take your frustration out on me anymore. nobody deserves that.

you're still one of my best friends, but i dont know how much im going to confide in you anymore. i was supportive of you when you told me that you were going ask her to date you, even though i thought it was too early. which i told you, but i was still supportive.

you cant be supportive of any person im interested in.
and if you cant be, are you really being a good friend?

Don't Rush.

baby it's fact.

our love is true.

the way black is black.

and blue is just blue.

my love is true.

its a matter of fact.

oh and you love me too.

it's as simple as that. <3

just in case they're wondering, they've got us pinned terribly.
they don't believe our love is real.

cause they don't know how real love feels.

toodle-oo!

this is

my little black, crack.
<3

oh, and i got hit on and TOTALLY creeped on by this windows guy from, australlia i thinkkk.
i was stupid to add him to facebook.
and distract him.
or maybe he left the control over my computer turned on, on purpose.

i'd believe it.

hi jenny

i am still working on your computer

okay, thanks.

i'm sorry jenny

i cud see the messages sent to sabrina

did you purposely read them?

not really

but i had the only chance to know what you think about me

i dont even remember what all i said about you. i know i said that i never do that sort of thing and it was strange.

was there something that bothered you?

no dear, nothing at all. and watever u'v said was what you think of me. so no issue....dont worry

i will still take care of your computer

awe. im really sorry if you saw that i copy and pasted your first comment. i actually thought it was cute.

and thank you for taking care of my computer by the way. i had absolutely no idea anything may be wrong with it.

one question though, how will i know when you are no longer on my computer? haha

i'm all done jenny just give me one minute and leaveend keyboard

jenny when u'l close that small ammyy box then i'l be disconnected from your computer

okay thanks! and as im sure you saw i talk to people through facebook messages a lot and tend to update and comment on facebook a lot. feel freee to talk to me whenever

i've gotta go now so im going to disconnect you. this was also strange but really funny so haha you have a good day!

bubye jenny take care of yourself

gud day to u 2

:)



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/what the FUCK/

I know you probably don't read this.
But just in case you do, yes I stole this from your tumblr.

“Life is a comedy for those who think, and a tragedy for those who feel.”

- Horace Walpole

and i stole it because it's true.
and you need to stop feeling.
smoke all that weed you're talking about.
and THEN think.
think about the fact that you've never actually been angry with him.
your anger has always been turned towards yourself and others that he is with.
but you have to realize that there is nothing wrong with /you/
you just need to find the right person.
yes, you believe it to be him.
but if he doesn't feel the same way about you, then it can't be him!
and life is too short to sit around sulking about it.
maybe, some day, in the DISTANT future, you two can try this again.
but nothing is going to change.
if you dont trust him.
or anybody.

“Anyone can become angry - that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not easy.”

- Aristotle

i stole that too ^
:)

I'm Christian.
but i still think its funny.

Reminds me of another photo \/

you know what i love?

with all my heart?

i'd have to say.

it's the dear friends of mine.

"awwwe howww sweeet!"

i know right.

getting all mushy on yuhs.

but they're all such honest.

and beautiful people!

every single one of you.

and remember that i remember each and /every/ one, that i gave this link to.

i may not be around all the time.

i may distance myself,

but i'll always be there.

i can't even imagine a life without the memories we've made together.
andsuchFANTASTICtimes. <3

honesty, integrity, and loyalty.
three things i look for in those that i wish to call my best friends.
and to put up with me bitching from time to time. ;)
maybe a bit more than that.


i'm probably just high.
and feeling lonely.
but all of these are things that i needed you to know anyway.
because you mean more to me than i can possibly show you.

indeed,

it's true.

i think you'd totally be up for it.
we just need some time.

and i need

some courage.

YOU WONT FIND MEEEEE