i know you're not the sweet talker like i am. i know for some reason you can't be mean to ALL these people that you barely know but then your best friend from grade fucking 9 you can be short with and, y'know, i enjoy sarcasm. but sometimes you're just plain fucking rude!
i can't say this to your face.

because nothing is going to fucking change anyway.

it will just make you awkward towards me for a week or so.

but just know.

it makes me feel like you don't appreciate.

or love me.

at all.

i've said before that i may not be around as much as i should.
so fucking shoot me.
sorry that i get caught up in life.


i just wish you could put in the effort.
when you're talking to me.
because we have been together for a looooong fucking time.
i don't want to lose you.
but some days you simply push me away.

there have been maybe 3 times in the past year that i have
/literally/
wanted to simply be as far away from you as possible.
because of some dirty look you give me while saying some snarky smartass sarcastic remark.
it PISSES me off!

everybody has 'moments'.
when they speak before thinking.
and come out looking stupid in the end.

those sarcastic remarks you say to me, when i have one of said 'moments'.
make me want to break your nose.


sometimes i notice too much too.


still.
i try to make the effort.
i want people to know i like them.

instead of having to guess.

depending on the looks you give.
looks, tone, and what is said.

i dunno.