Alex Dunphy - "So dumb guys go for dumb girls, and smart guys go for dumb girls? What do the smart girls get?"

Phil Dunphy - "Cat's Mostly."

hot damn, that girl's a train wreck.

i put. so much effort into that one night.
when we went out and played with fireworks and smoked bongs at the picnic table and in the middle of the road under the stars and the heat lightning (orwhateveritwascalled)!
that was an amazing night, when i SHOULD have kissed you.
well im pretty sure it was the next day, i took you back to aarons place, yep it was.
he gave you a back massage (or however different massages) and you ended up kissing and probably fucking.

so here's a sorry in advance.
no offense bitch.

i hate that i have to talk to you about this.
i want to simply send you a facebook message.
just get it done and over with.


i'm angry at you today.
and you have no idea.
which in turn, fuels my anger.
and sadness.


sucks that aarons going to be gone for a few months and you're losing your best friend.
maybe if you'd answer to my texts trying to figure out plansss
but no.
you'll just wait until morning...
sure, i don't reply right away sometimes.
but if i'm trying to make plans with someone, i fucking make sure i reply to them!
i was going to have you over tonight.
but it /really/ seems like.
you don't care about seeing me.
unless i'm coming over to aarons...


so why should i care about seeing you?
i've already decided that things are better if we just stay friends.
you're not worth the hurt.
but it also hurts, hearing you talk about aaron.
and spending time with his kids.

so this is why i wont send your facebook message tonight.
because yes i'm done with you.
and i said this wouldn't ruin our friendship.
but you may have to stop talking to me about him for a while.

otherwise i can't continue to stay friends.

Hawt daym that girl's on fire!

"you're awesome, Jen."
"Why?"
"Because you take care of me, you're pretty, and you smoke weed."



t'is how i do.

Drop beats, not bombs.

We're not falling in love, we're just falling apart.

So go on, dance the night away!
This is how the beat goes,
just let your body go.
This is how the beat drops.
I wanna see your panties drop, girl, now!

All this time we've wasted, pretending we're in love, but that's alright.
You know i love being with you.

Don't let go.

J-K J-K J-K
L-O L-O L-O L
i heart your fucking makeup,
oh my gawd i love your hair!
is that a new tattoo?
did that piercing fucking hurt?
yo JK JK JK
LO LO LO L

hehe i should head off to work, FEEL BETTER MISSUS!
and i mean headache go away.
geebers.

"We can talk about normal until the cows come home."
"What is normal?"
"What is home?"
"What are cows?

Tonight she's not Alone

singing songs that make you slit your wrists.
it isn't that much fun, staring down the loaded gun.
so i won't stop dying, won't stop lying. (are you there at all?)
if you want, i'll keep on crying. (do you care at all?)
did you get what you deserve? (are you there at all?)
isthiswhatyouwalwayswantmefor?


when will i miss you?
and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard.
made it so hard.




hehehe i love listening to old bands/CDs again.
My Chemical Romance, From First to Last, Fall out boy, System of a Down, The Spill Canvas, and othersss! just makes me happy.

sonofabiiiitch. why can't blogger letlkf'bhga;fdjhga;jgha;jghfkjdhbfgjfjhfbdjafdkjfjhkf
twice now.
i've written a perfect rant about how stupid blogger can be with certain things.
and accidentally deleted it.
things like
letting me type in the full space of this post box, or whatever the fuck it's called. it's stupid that i can continue writing past whatever photo i have on here. when i ask for a large photo, i want the largest photo you can fit on the page! not a photo that i can write around and shit like that. let us choose those setting when we go to upload our photo so my blog posts stop looking so fucking laaame! i have GORGEOUS photos that i want to share with the world but they look kinda pathetic when they're so small and surrounded by wordss.

even posting the picture all by it's self, sometimes isnt enough.
please, somebody read this. and also give us a choice to center the title of our blog post? that'd be wonderful. sometimes it reeeeeeeally bothers me.

(..ilikethings) World's Electronic Music Festival!

these are in no particular order.. but this is skrillex! ^ c:

on the way up. :)

there was fog all around the mountains in the morning on saturday. it was beautiful

intense amount of tents, and the Tower of Destiny!

gorgeous sabrinaaa! this was friday night before we went out to see Zed's Dead and Skrillex.

Tower of Destiny!

hahah Friday night. :)

so many people, so much music, so much awesome.

speaks for it's self

i dont remember who this was, looks awesome though.

Saturday night: we smoked bongs and got all glow-a-fied in my truck to beat the rain. it was almost the perfect plan, except none of us thought about the motels possibly being full...

THERE HE IS. oh sonny moore, how i adore you.

wish we had have noticed this little spot earlier. it looks sickkkk

heheh back in the tent on friday night.

RAAAAH!

UFO BITCHES!

haha the lineup to get into WEMF. (:

and some picture before starting the long trip to WEMF.
It was a great weekend.
I appreciate music so much more than i ever thought i could.
i like it.

maybe you'll never know how much it hurts.

but i guess it shouldn't matter.

we said we'd continue to talk about everything.

keep it in the open so no one gets hurt.
and i didn't follow that.

but now i can't talk to aaron like normal. because i still have my own shit to get over.
and also i'm afraid for him.

i know you told him that as long as he doesn't try to steal you away from me, then everything is okay.

but you know guys.

that thought won't stay in their head.

and maybe aaron is different.

but it's still going to hurt him if you decide that you can't continue with this.

maybe he'll be lucky and you're feelings will take over and you'll start dating.

you're basically dating now anyway.

might as well make it official.




yeaaahhhhhhhh i ain't got much else on my mind lately.
cept that my kitteh is adorable.

and so is Eliza.

her second birthday was yesterday.

soooooo cute.

do you remember me?

and how we used to be?
do you think that we should be
closer?

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Aaron.
talking to you pisses me off.
i don't know if that's just because of the mindset i'm in

and i need some time to get over it.

or i just really don't like you.

but i probably just need time.

i hope

because you fucking suck.

and i just want to hurt people.

all the time.

cut grass?

fuck that.

i hurt people.

Nothing matters when you're on a seesaw.

maybe i'll have pictures for proof...

No matter what you do.
I'll always be here for you.

Bitches love me.

my taste in music has changed drastically.
WEMF has shown me what real techno, trance, electronic, dubstep, and happy hardcore sounds like.
and i'm in love.


one band.
thank you so much David for showing me.
Zomboy.

similar to Skillex but of course, has their own style.
i can't get enough of them.


i have some pictures from WEMF now.
i'll post them when i get the rest.
sooo many pictures!

Bad Things Happen to Good People.

why won't da bitch leave us alone?

so here's a sorry in advance.

no offense, bitch.

I've found a new love

from an old one

and OH GOODNESS it makes me happy.

hehehe.
i must say.
that it's simply because.
i let my heart take over too quickly.
even when i said i wouldn't.

we will always be friends.
:)

Can you feel it?

y'know, i think i've only given the link to my blog to 6 people.

i strongly believe only half of you check it, or have looked through the entire thing.

but i guess becky is right, human beings are selfish pricks.

every single one of them .

and i hate to say it,
but that includes me.


but really, what choice do we have?
we were born into this society, this era of touch screen and 3-D ready electronics.

the internet.

CELL PHONES.
this is what is normal to us.

yes it's pathetic.

but what does it matter?
we're all dying anyway, just slowly.

and who knows, tomorrow you could find out you have some terminal disease.
(thanks Weeds)


live like you're dying

be nice to those around you.

i found life instructions at one point

have fun.

do not hurt people
do not accept defeat

and strive to be happy.

everyone breaks these rules.
i, have to clean to day which is no fun at all.

i have hurt people, most were by accident but i'm sure there were a few that was on purpose or i knew whatever i was going to say would cause pain.
i accepted defeat this weekend, no point holding onto something that's going no where. i understand we're supposed to always have confidence in ourselves, we can do anything if we put our minds to it. but thats really, not always the case.
and strive to be happy...
well.
that can be very difficult sometimes, but we all do our best, right?


agh.
i guess my point is.
i'm sorry. <3

GET OFF THE INTERNET AND DO SOME CLEANING!

geeze.

you don't understand.

you take me by the heart when you take me by the hand.

There's a light in you.
it's beautiful.
I couldn't bare it if I snuffed it out.
- Eric Northman

back to the way it used to be.
i'm alone,
and you are free.
<3

Who wants to be ordinary...

... in this crazy mixed up world?

It's funny how much you hate me.

but we have so much in common.
did you enjoy In the Land of Women?
because strangely enough, when i watched it near the beginning of this blog of mine, i really enjoyed that movie.
and watched it every night for a week.

i love.
the grandmother in it most.
"ehh you mumble a bit in your sleep"
"what were you doing in my room while i was sleeping?"
"that's a good question..."

once you really stop caring about wanting everyone to like you all the time, you can't be shy anymore.

hehehe i knew it was too good to last.
and like i said.

i wanted to give it a shot anyway.

but.
i'm not the type to share.

so you enjoy what you have.
and i'll be a friend for when you need her.

you didn't want to ruin things.
but you did.
it was an accident, really.

ignorance is bliss.





WEMF was fucking awesome though! Hopefully pictures will be up for me to steal veeeeery soon. :)

hehehe.
i'm excited.

(:

ehnn.
i doubt you read this anymore.
you've got your own life.
and i've got mine.
i don't want to stay here.
but i will.
if you're considering just staying where's easiest.
where's closest.

so why does it always seem to be.
me looking at you

you looking at me

s'always the same, it's just a shame, thats all.

i could leave but i wont go, it'd be easier, i know.
i cant feel a thing from my head down to my toess.

but i love you.
more than i wanted to.
there's no point in trying to pretend.

there's been no one who
makes me feel like you do.

i loves me some Genesis.
and some ladies.
biiiotch.

How much dub would a dubstep step if a dubstep could step dub?

soooo i'm kinda stoked for this weekend and next week.
tristan and sabrina are coming down for the weekend.
we're going to see strippers and go campinnggg. :)

monday is chuckycheese (which i never spell correctly) with Mrs Stephanie and Miss Ashlee and we're spending the night in a Motel.
ooo la-laa. ;)

and then
friday
until sunday.
IS WEMF!

http://www.wemf.com/


i am stoked beyond belief. (:

so i realized something.
i'm a fiend

for tv shows.

if i'm watching an episode for the first time,
i have to watch the whole thing, beginning to end,
see it ALL!



hahaha. now remember that.

she's like heroin sipping through a little glass.